Here I am. Upset with myself.
How can I be anything to anyone.
I am the most hurtful person I know.
I hate myself.
I had someone who loved me more then I thought anyone could. I ruined it. Me.
I never want to see him with anyone else, but I believe he deserves someone who smiles more then I do. Someone who knows how to love & not say hurtful things like I do.
I go home in a couple weeks. I hope it doesn’t tear us apart. I love him so much.
I know he won’t want to stay. Stay with the girl who he though was is his dreams. He won’t want to be with a girl like me. No one does & that’s why I always have felt alone.